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50/50 Again but getting better

Tue Nov 10, 2009, 12:46 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Watching: Top Gear! >w< Awesomeness!
  • Playing: Pokemon Platuim DS
  • Eating: Pizza
  • Drinking: Pepsi

Can't wait for new year

Wed Dec 9, 2009, 11:23 AM
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Watching: Mock the Week
  • Eating: Steak and Chips
  • Drinking: Pepsi
Hello awesome people
Hope you are all doing great, looking forward to a good Christmas and happy new year. Dying for this year to be done and soon forgotten. 2009? What a load of crap!!! XD Seriously this year has been nothing but bad for me and some of my friends, we are all waiting for this new year and hoping it is a alot ALOT better then this one.
This really is a year that I could just fast-forward through and missed and I wouldn't care X3 And these few weeks have been depressing, shocking and very sad. Me and my friend have both lost a pet during these few weeks, my hamster and her cute little cat, really hoping she feels better soon. R.I.P Shearer the Hamster and little Shino the cat. Both will be missed.
Anyways, more crap has went on but I really don't want to go into much detail, one I'm trying not to think about it much and two, I really don't want to go on one of my little rants right now. Just not in the mood that right now X3; So here it is in a nutshell.
College life: Its sorta good, sorta bad at times
Home Life: Its alot better then it use too
Family: Haven't heard from them and glad!
Health: ...Worrying >_>
Anyways that's all. Sorry for not so many drawings up, college has had me tied up, but I'm getting my Christmas holiday soon, so I'll be free from college and be back on track hopefully, while enjoying my Guitar Hero and a awesome Xmas dinner, yummy >w> So that's all people, hope you all are going good, have a happy Christmas and new year. Laterz! xxx


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Back in Hell

Mon Sep 28, 2009, 12:23 AM
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: My mam and sister arugement
  • Watching: Hot Fuzz
Yeah...back in Hell...and mostly because of facebook and a little bit of family again...

My dad has just been arrested...because he here and he shouldn't be here. My mam got this thing about 6 months ago, it says that my dad must stay away from my mam and if he doesn't he gets arrested for the rest of the 6 months. Anyways, someone rang the police they found my dad here and took him away but my mam let him stay because she's been worried about things and she needed someone to talk too and help her stay relaxed and calm.
The police have now notcied that we are being threatened by my dad's side of the family, my unite and my uncle...because they thing my mam and has done something...

You see...shouldn't really being saying anything about this but...nobody here or who I meet believes me. They think I make it up just to get attetion but I'm telling the truth...
Anyways, 8 years ago my unlce murdered someone, my mam was dragged into this mess because the police thought she was trying to help him escape the country. y uncle was sent to jail for that but is now out. Anyway, my mam has been talking to a man who wants to write a book on the murder and know my mam knows about it. Somehow, my unlce and auntie hacked my mam facebook account where she has been talking to this man on. And now people from the murder that helped my uncle are being arrested and think my mam has something to do with it when she hasn't said a word about any of this, and they have threatened me, my sister, my mam and my dad...my uncle is a dangerous man and so are the people he knows...a reason we're all running scared...
Now, I see the reason why my mam wants us to move and everything...
So, yeah, back where I started but in Hell and waiting to climb halfway out only to fall back in again and again and again...
Why is this always happening to my family?...What have we done wrong?...Why do we deserve this?...Why can't we ever get a break from this?...oh, I wish I knew these answers...but I do get one answer all the time in my head...because I belong to a family with horrible pasts, and anyone that belongs to that family...suffers along with it...lucky me being brought into a family of bloody murders eh?...

Sorry about this...I just can't talk to anyone about this, mostly because nobody believes me, and some people think I have a metal problem. Nobody really understands me. I feel like the friends I made on here know more about me then what my mam or dad knows...I kinda find it hard to talk to them since they have there own problems to deal with right now...anyways, that really it for now...now you see kinda why my life is a bit of a hell and everything, sorry if I've just went on and on. But thats it, now you know. I just really hope the people who made facebook burn in fucking hell and die very very fucking painfully :stab:
Hope I get to talk to you all soon...see ya xx

*EDIT*
Well things just get back to worse!...My dad is now going to court, and getting charged...he hasn't even fucking done anything!!! We're getting threathened and there more worried about throwing my dad, how is completely in prison for something that 'someone' over the phone told he did! I can't believe this!!! I really can't! It fucking stupid!!! Thanks to those bloody wankers, policeman, I've had to miss college and I could possibly get thrown out of my 5 GSCE course just because I've missed one day! ...The college has this thing, its like a trail to see if your good enough to join the College, and thanks to all th shit, I might get fucking kicked off it!!! ...this is shit!...this is so fucking shit!!! Now I have to worry about getting killed, off my own fucking uncle!!!...My mam bloody terrified, she's too afaird to go out the house and she won't left me out either...'College is gonna be great, its gonna be a new fresh start' Seems more back to square fucking one!!!

50/50

Thu Sep 24, 2009, 10:47 AM
  • Mood: Questionable
  • Watching: Harry Hill TV Burp
  • Eating: Mince and dumpings
  • Drinking: Pepsi
Hey guys

Well things are going...slightly better then before. I am enjoying college, my lessons are hard episcally since 2 of my teachers can't speak a word of bloody english ><;;; I'm not being rasict, am just saying, it is a bit hard to learn anything if you can't understand what there saying, am I right?

Family on the other hand...it could be a hell of alot better. I can't really say anything thats happening at the moment, its between me and my family. So X3;;;; there. My mam is planning on making us move house...I am not happy about that because all my friends are here and I don't want to lose contact with them.

Anyways, am doing better than what I was before, not as depressed, still some downs but nothing I can handle...I've been through hell and back, this shall be no different X3;
I've made some good friends in college, all really love my drawings XD and they think I'm funny and yet quiet person to be around X3 So it good

Anyways, thats all I wanted to say, I hope your all doing good and feeling well ^^ And hope to talk to you all very soon. Byebye xxx

Forget What I said

Sun Sep 13, 2009, 7:44 AM
  • Mood: Suffering
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Forget what I said in my last journal...
My mam isn't letting me keep Tyson, and she giving him back...even after I told her I pay for him....My dad isn't allowed to move back in...because of that bitch again...I feel like complete shit...because she's made me feel like this...I can't be bothered with anything tomorrow...I don't want to go to College...

I honestly feel like dying...She keeps making me feel like this...I can't it...It driving me isane...thanks to that bitch I have to call mother...she think she's so prefect...so normally...She sent my dad to a one of those people for metal health problems...She the one that need to go! Not him...thanks to her, I seriosuly think there something wrong with me...Am an emotoinal wreck thanks to her...she's the reason I wanted to kill myself years ago...I feel the same why now as I did back then...and it over nothing...I'm just been sitting here with a headache crying...I'm stressing myself to death because of her...I can't get out of here either...She's fucking killing and I can't do much about...

...Am gonna see if I can see someone at College...Mostly for help...I'm not gonna get it here so I need to talk to someone...If am not carefull...I just end up trying to kill myself again...

Sorry about this and yesterday, it just something I want to get out because, no one at home talks to me, most of my friends are busy, I just really need someone people to talk too...
So sorry again...talk to you laters x

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