Hey guys
Well, as always I've a good month but it never lasted, the past few weeks haven't been the best. First I'll start with my summer school at the College I was planning on going too. I've changed my mind...I'm not ready College, and the course I was going to take was boring and I didn't enjoy anything the summer school had. I was too nervious to talk to anyone, I tried but it felt like nobody was listening and I was talking to a brick wall. I'm trying to see if I can go back into school, 6 form. I've had enough people telling me I should or have to go to College, I don't want to be pressured into going somewhere I'm not use too and don't find the courses that good, they good but its not what I've looking for. I went in to see one of my teachers in my old school, I know I said its a Hell Hole but then, I was getting bullied and the teachers were being dicks, in 6 form, your treated like an adult and the kids that want to stay in 5 forms are the people who want to learn and are mature. Sure I can be inmature but I pick the right moments to be like that. Anyways, the teacher I went to see, looked at my predicted grades...and to her there bad
English 1: B
English 2: C
Math: F
Science: CD
ICT: BB
Art: C
Technology: C

To me, I'd say I did my best. She also said my attentdence is really bad, she asked me why I stayed off school so much. I explained about the blood tests I've had to take, the problems with stomach pains, and getting bullied. She understood and told me that the boys thats would have bullied me, it would be unlikely they come back into 6th form since they didn't want to learn in the first place. My sis says that the teacher could be being a bitch because my sis went into 6 form and fucked up really bad, and she probably thinks I fuck up and there be no point in having me in 6 form. I've also felt, pushed aside by my mam and dad. When I did come back home after the interview with my teacher, my mam didn't care about what the teacher said, she wanted to know if I got my sisters stuff back, I didn't because my sis has to sign something in order to have her stuff returned and £5 backs. Just same like in my family have completely forgot about me and are only listening to my sister. I've always been shoved aside. Always when I did something good, my mam wouldn't care because something would always happened to my sister or my dad, I've getting pretty sick of it, since my mam was pretty much sucking up to me only a few weeks ago, like she finally wanted to talk to me, trying to buy me loads of stuff but it felt like she was trying to buy my love/trust back. Kinda, the reason I came to dA, to improve my work and find some friends. I'm glad I have came to dA because I've made some great friends.
Hopefully things will pick up soon and I get into 6 form, I'll be going into school on Argust the 27th, to fond out my grades from the exams I've just finished, I hope I'll get the grades I need to get into 6 form, or do something.
Sorry if I just rambled on, but it was something I need to get off my chest and talk to somebody about and see if I'm making the right choices about not going college.
And hopefully this bloody rain stops by tomorrow, Dave (*Demon-Without-Horns) is meant to be visiting and we're were planning on going to be Pictures to see something, still deciding on what we're going to see. Last time it eas raining, his train was delayed alot, he only got to stay for a few hours, that was a real shitty day for us.
Anyways, thanks for listening..well reading X3;;;
Hope your all well, and doing good. I'll try to draw more drawings soon
And hope I'll talk to you all soon.
Byebye x



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